Yeah, don't try to love someone you know you can't, it's impossible! You just end up hateing the world!
But yeah, that over, I've learn my lesson, maybe that kiss was a mistake

I am traped by the fact that all the angst from every day of every year is pouring out from where it was bottled, and I don't think I can stop it this time... guess it's true what they say... sometimes doing a thing that is well intentiond can hurt like hell, even if not phisicly... heh, she probably only didn't punish me cause she predicted the phycological torment I'm going trough now...
Heh, well... it's what you get from letting your emotions slip and seeing all your friends off properly, maybe this is all my fault! but I'm never going to see most of my old form again ;_; why shouldn't I feel sad? just, I didn't expect a bleed of sadness! Guess this time I might become truely emotionless!
Well, the only thing for it is to resign to the fact that she'll never let anyone in to share her story... I doubt anyone will want to share mine, so yeah, incase I do lose all emotion and stuff, I have enjoyed what friendship I have received from you all soo far. Thankyou for your suport and encouridgement, I only apologise that it's come to nothing... chaising rainbows is never fun, and I, for a time, chaised the hardest one! So in the event I become a shell, thankyou, I owe you all aloot, especially Catarina, Paula, and maybe even Ed, cause he sometimes helped, despite his ocasional iritateingness! Have a good life peeps okay?